My nephews and co-workers, that I love so much, have inspired me to write. J Their inquisitiveness and insatiable appetites for truth and debate often challenge me to step up to the plate with responses that are not only interesting but accurate. That’s not easy, especially when our recent raps about my spirituality and Christianity have felt more like interrogations. Although I speak from my heart with strong conviction and passion, I often exit the Q and A’s feeling as though I fell short in some way. I fear I haven’t truly articulated my unshakable faith and love for God and Jesus Christ in a way that leaves them with a sense of true understanding of who their Aunt is. It’s hard to describe a feeling of truth that comes from deep within your soul. I find myself being driven to refine my explanation of faith so that what I say isn’t just babble going in one ear and out the other; but is something for them to wrap their minds around and will soak into their sponge-like brains. Out of this comes the inspiration; and I pray my words will frequently flood their thoughts and eventually their hearts filling them with truth and love. I want so badly to make the most of this precious time I have with them, realizing that the greatest gift I can give is sharing God’s love. I have the power to control the kind of influence I am and I don’t want to waste a moment.
My life has been built mainly on faith and trust in what my loved ones taught me and very little on study and research. What I wish I could do is open up my heart and mind, let you climb in, and feel what I feel. That would be my answer to the question “How do you know?” But to put it in words would simply be, that I have a deep feeling of peace and joy that overwhelms my heart to a capacity that feels as though it may explode; but instead, it causes a flood of emotion to come pouring out the windows to my soul. In other words; how can it be wrong when it feels sooooo right!?! That may be enough to convince ME that what I’ve been taught and lived by for 38 years is right; but, to a teenager or anyone else who questions, that doesn’t exactly translate into proof, solid evidence, or an undeniable reason to believe. The interpretation is usually that I am either very religious, uneducated, or possibly just a nut.
I have decided to stop talking and write. I want to explain to them MY understanding of God and the Bible, and what it means to ME in a way that makes sense, without being rushed, interrupted, or without them having to look at the unsightly facial contortions caused by my uncontrollable emotions. I always seem to have the perfect things to say fluttering around in my head like beautiful butterflies, but when I speak, the words that make their way out, although plump with passion and potential, lack the poetic beauty that leaves a listener wanting more. I never feel as though I’ve said something great. But now, cocooned in my room, I am able to be patient and let my thoughts metamorphous into words worthy of putting on paper. Let’s hope it all makes sense.
To increase my chances, I’ll start with a little prayer.
“Dear God, I give myself up to You and ask that You use me, work through me, and give me the right words, so that this may penetrate the hearts of all who are kind enough to read. Amen.”
Who is God? God is the three most important influences in my life; the Trinity. He is the Heavenly Father who created me and loves me. He is the Son, Jesus Christ, who came to live and die to save me. And He is the Holy Spirit who lives in me to guide and protect me. This is a tough one to explain to others, but to me it’s obvious and undeniable. God is the Creator. God is King of all kings. And as the Master behind the plan, God is outside of time and space and beyond our comprehension. Out of love, He created everything with us in mind. He wants a relationship with us, where we rely on Him, confide in Him, and put our trust in Him. He wants only what is best for us, including an abundantly full and happy life. But most of all, he wants us to love Him. He desires this so much that He gave us free will so that our love would be true. Unfortunately out of free will comes the possibility of rejection.
It’s a test of true love, our life on this planet
It lasts just a minute, but that’s how He planned it
Don’t think this is it, there’s way more in store
Something better awaits for those who adore
When it all appears over and the body is dead
Take comfort in knowing the soul rejoices instead
Our final exhale, last fall of the chest
Leads to reaping rewards on passing the test
Below we are buried, but above we will rise
To heaven we are taken where our Father resides
What is Heaven you ask, with great contemplation
It is God’s place of dwelling, our final destination
It’s absent of evil with no sadness or tears
A place without anger, chaos or fears
The sight of perfection, sweet smells and warm air
Deluged with great love and joyous affair
A place to be marveled, streets lined in gold
With God as our ruler, so gracious and bold
The problem there is, to rest in this place
We must become pure by accepting God’s grace
Our sins separate us and lack sacrifice
So to earth He has come to pay the great price
The truth that is told you must place in you’re heart
Then spread the great word for soon we all part
***Okay, that’s better. I can move on now. Thanks for hanging in there.
God loves us all and wants us all to have eternal life in Heaven with Him. But our imperfections and our sinful nature is the barrier between us and eternity with God. Our transgressions must be paid for so that there may be forgiveness and a cleansing that allows for the purity needed for the acceptance into Heaven. God isn’t trying to be cruel. Quite the contrary; He loves us so much that He decided to come to Earth in the form of the Son, Jesus, to teach, love and ultimately be the human sacrifice needed for us to be forgiven of our sins – past, present, and future. Jesus paid the price of admittance for us, and now, through Him, the door to Heaven has been opened for all. WOW!!!! HE DIED FOR US!!!! Now if that isn’t true love. The ultimate gift …. Forgiveness! Think about that for a minute. We all know how hard it is to forgive, especially when it’s undeserved and the wrong doing continues, but that’s what God did for us. And all that He asks in return is to acknowledge that truth and store it in your heart. Absolutely unbelievable!! My soul aches with love and appreciation when I think about the suffering Jesus undeservingly went through for ME. Just so that YOU and I can have a home in Heaven with our Creator. Amazing! And what’s even more amazing, is we have this guarantee in writing.
Authored by God, inked through carefully chosen men, the Bible is the story of life from beginning to end. It’s a tale of good verses evil. It’s the novel before the movie. A Father’s letter to His child writing of love, sacrifice, and forgiveness. It’s a reference manual that contains our history, our present, and our future. This book is clear and firm on vital instructions for living. The Bible explains everything we NEED to know to enjoy a loving, peaceful, purpose filled existence with promises of rewards. At the same time, it cautiously reveals the future with warnings, truths, tragedies, and triumphs allowing room for imagination and interpretation, but leaving no doubt that good will prevail in a way that keeps hope and curiosity alive, filling you with anticipation for each new day. It answers our questions, but leaves us with more. To all that read comes inspiration, introspection, and self revelation. Lives are changed. This is the ultimate read where words come to life only to rest in your mind and forever speak to your heart.
So what does this all mean for my life? Well, over the years it has changed. As my body goes through the depressing inevitable aging process and slows down, my mind seems to be ramping up. The way I think has changed and the blinders have been removed. I now look and react to situations differently. I feel as though I have the answer to life… my life. This realization sends an electrical current of renewed purpose and motivation enabling me to embrace who I am, where I am, and generates a light through which God can shine. This awakening warms me to the core of my being and literally takes my breath away. I believe this is a gift bestowed upon you when you reach a level of spiritual maturity that beckons you to surrender your life to Christ. This is the evolution of the soul that takes place when you allow God’s Word to penetrate your every day existence. I understand now that true power comes from God. Plug yourself into Him, for He is the only outlet from which the current flows freely and is never turned off. What a deal!
Please take note, I am not claiming to be perfect or anywhere near; just ask my husband, kids, family, friends, co-workers, etc, etc…. But, I can tell you that it does get easier and easier to resist the temptations that haunt us. God replaces those desires with positive reinforcement and understanding that living for instant gratification leaves you feeling not so grateful; if you get my gist. Instead you are filled with satisfaction and joy that is so empowering. The longing to do what is right leads to an ability that gets stronger and stronger to the point of it being obvious and easy. I love God with every cell of my being and all I truly want is to live life exactly the way He intended. I want to make my Father proud!
What makes God smile is when we talk about His love and share the true story of Jesus. I wish I could shout it from the roof tops. What makes me sad is I feel like people hesitate to accept, not just because of the “lack of proof” they claim, but because of the fear of having to change their lifestyle and stop having fun. They are scared that in order to become a Christian and actually confess to believing, they must first give up all the little bad habits in their lives that define fun and excitement for them. But, you see, they have it backwards. You don’t change for God; God changes you. God knows we are imperfect and lack the strength to ever get there on our own. I mean, seriously, why else would He choose to come to Earth as our Savior and go thru unimaginable torture and crucifixion, if not to be the ultimate sacrifice? If that was not His final gift to us or His purpose for existing, don’t you think that with all the miracles that Jesus performed He could have easily gotten out of that situation? For it all to make sense and resonate as truth you must FIRST CHOOSE to believe.